plucky duck

I am a 39 year old single mother of a ten year old boy in Indiana.  My parents are deceased and my siblings and rest of the family are not always kind or willing to good heartedly aide eachother in times of need.  I recenty returned to our city from northern Indiana.  I'm back in town with my sonwith no current job nor living quarters.  I just recently went on series of interviews, and one job with the police dept. may pan out.  I plan to complete an undergraduate degree in business starting this fall.

The problem is it seems that for the past year and a half, I have been through the most despairing times of my life.  I just don't understand what's going on.  I struggled like never before for just the necessities; all the while helping out others family and friend howerver and whenever i could.  Now, seems no one gives a damn about me and my son. 

 I sometimes find myself crying at night when everyones asleep.  I'm getting very depressed, but I love my son so mcuh, I must go on.  I believe once I began working soon,  get another apartment, return to school, things will look brighter.  I look at my son while he's asleep and tears fall from my eyes.  I'm all he has and all he's ever had.  I love him so much, I just want to do more for him as I always had in the past before everything fell through the floor.

 I pray to God, for patience, srenght and guidance.  I'm trying to keep the faith, but I do sometimes wonder "God where are you?"  I don't want to rely on people for help or compassion, I hurt so bad when you need them most.

I need too talk with someone who cares.  Please include myself and son in your prayers.  God bless.